[原创] that is life

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-13 16:20

another lovely day, but once again feel my work seems to be leading nowhere.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-19 20:06

I went back to the office after dinner because I am arranged to work tonight. Generally speaking, I work for two nights a week, of which one happens on Tuesday while the other one on Thursday. But sometimes I work for three nights in a week if a meeting is to be held on Friday night. We work for money in a way because we will get more money from the company if we spend more extra time in the office. Money is a necessity but it will be enough when you can afford what you want to buy. So I am kind of puzzled why so many people are dying for the money devil. As to the unit I work for, it not only wants to gain money but fame as well. So we are forced to work even though some of our coworkers do not feel like working at night.  It was still early for the work but I had go back to the office for the working place where I am staying in is quite far away from the downtown, without any means of having fun except going for a walk around the buildings. Since I felt a bit tired of work and not in the mood of walking with some other colleagues, I went back to the office, preparing for the work of tonight. One of my colleagues asked me whether or not I had ever been to the downtown to see friends. I knew who he referred to but pretended not to know, saying I had no friend at all in the downtown. When he left, I began to introspect myself whether I am not tolerant enough to her. Actually another friend of mine once mentioned her in the afternoon suggesting me phoning her to see how much money she got for her good work and I did not feel like to. I have not phoned her for quite a long time, not deliberately but unconsciously, and I have strangely found I can still enjoy myself without her company.  She was one of my best and most reliable friends in Tiantai. She did not do any harmful thing in a strict sense to me but I just can not face the fact that she cheated me for some other people. It is not a long story but hurtful. About two months ago she telephoned me asking whether I can do some foreign trade for her about tents and some other kits for outdoor activities in the name of her former classmates.  Considering the special position where I am I am kind of in a dilemma to do it by myself. So I asked my sister to help her with the stuff. In September, it turned out that the person she helped do the foreign trade thing is one of my coworkers. I was startled totally the minute I got the news. Never have I thought she would have cheated me. I called her after I got to know who was the guy doing outdoor kits but she dodged lying to me with another excuse. If only she would tell me the truth! I would feel better and I might have forgiven her. I do think I am a tolerant person but I just could not bear what she did to me. Well, should I be more tolerant? Or am I actually a guy who could be easily hurt?   <span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #3300ff; FONT-FAMILY: Courier; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN;">There is still an hour to go before I can leave for the dorm. How I wish it goes quickly. I am tired and sleepy.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-19 15:55

Life is simple and boring, nothing worth mentioning but a little bit about what happened at lunch time.Kind of late when I finished the job in the morning so inevitably I went for lunch later than usual. Walking to the canteen, I felt kind of lonely and depressed.  Coming across with one of colleagues happening to be late for the lunch lessened my loneliness a little bit, so we went together to the dining hall. I ordered a bit rice and three dishes, one is bean curd with a bit preserved duck egg in sauce, another one is sweet-and-sour pork, and the last one is egg stewed with a bit mince, which would taste better when they were warm. We talked a bit when we were having lunch. It seems that topics on relationship can never be neglected when conversations comes. She asked me about my house-moving matter happening days ago and whether my him ever offered any help and how we get along with right now. She suggested loving some guy who is close to you in the distance term is much more applicable and I should be more realistic. Platonic relationship is what we desire when we were young. Coming to the matter of marriage and real life, it never works. She once loved a man when she was in the university, but she changed for another guy when she came to work in Tiantai for she needs the kind of love perceptible and easy to get. She said she could not manage a life with lots of idle talks. She has never truly parted with her husband from the day they began to love each other. To her, how her husband was educated is not so important as how he could try to stay with her and act as a knight in shining armor. The most important thing is that he should be always there helping her out whenever happens.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-19 15:55

I could have never thought he could be so incompetent. He was a capable guy. Yesterday afternoon one of my friend and I talked a bit about future. She said she might have to be stuck here for a while while I sort of still have hopes because of him. She said life could not be dismal to the would-be wife of a doctor. Well, who knows? I might have misunderstood him a lot in the past days. God bless me. I am a good goody : )

小球 · 发表于 2006-10-19 08:48

just like your friend,,,we should feel deeply graterul.......and be lucky for our still alive another daywhat do you do?

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-18 16:21

to 小球：I choose these charaters diliberately. i like them : )

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-18 16:33

A good siesta at <time hour="12" minute="0">noon</time> gave me a comparatively sober mind for a short time yesterday afternoon. I carried out the work efficiently to a certain extent and finished all before the planned time. Just when I was sort of happy with what I had got through and planned to have a good rest, I was given another job by my team leader supposed to be finished by some other people. It seems that there is a so-called unsettled rule that beginners should do more jobs and offer to help others. When you are asked to finish sth, usually you have no choice but to do it.  Well, just as mentioned, you face the job or lose the job. If you are unhappy with what you are treated, you can leave. Nobody cares. One of my coworkers once said there are numbers of guys desiring to work for the work unit which I belong to. So if you want to stay in this F place, you have to tolerate all kinds of unfairness.  Kinda sucks for working overtime last night. But on the other hand, it might make me busy, and I would be too busy to be unhappy. Got up early as usual and fortunately nothing wrong happened. I went for lunch together with one of my friend and was told by her that she feels lucky when she gets up everyday finding she is still alive. Compared with her, she thinks, I am definitely a lucky doggy. So there is no way that I should complain.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-18 16:36

time for dinner la : )

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-18 15:44

to 小球：you can do it far better than me : )

小球 · 发表于 2006-10-18 14:45

too long,,,,and the typeface is so small...i told myself to insist on reading the last passage completely,,,but failed...besides,i want to say i admire you so much ,hope one day i can type so long passages like u

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-17 15:24

Friday is always an off-day for me when I have more stuff to take care of than any other weekday, among which work takes most of my time, and I sometimes have to stretch working time to prepare for the following weekdays’ job. It would be even worse if there were a meeting to be held, usually happening on Friday’s night, which means working from <time minute="30" hour="6">6:30 am</time> to more or less <time minute="30" hour="19">7:30 pm.</time> Today’s work took up about 14 hours, for the meeting lasted twice as long as usual. Tired of the whole day’s work and enlightening meeting, I went to bed earlier.  Saturday should have been a break time, but we are kind of not lucky enough to enjoy it, for most of us have to work for at least extra 80 minutes. For the particularity of this week I worked from <time minute="40" hour="12">12:40</time> at <time minute="0" hour="12">noon</time> to <time minute="0" hour="5">5:00</time> in the afternoon, twice as much as I do generally on Saturday. Accompanied by one of her friends, my sister came to visit me offering a great help to decorate my new dorm in a more attractive way. My father did make it a cozy place and make everything in its right place, but still, I need to purchase more facilitators for the convenience’s sake. One of the indispensable items is a washing machine. I don’t think I am too lazy to wash the clothes, but I do have found it really troublesome washing them in a small basin in me kind of bathroom. Therefore, a washing machine is a necessity. Together with my sister and her friend, I went to a most popular place where the majority of household electrical appliances are available to see which make is of higher quality. After that we went to have chafing dishes, a remarkably popular pattern of having meals in Tiantai in recent years. We ordered frozen bean curd, coriander, wormwood (I am not quite sure of its correct name. it is a kind of green vegetable, a bit like the plant of baby daisy), lettuce, sliced mutton roll, chunks of potatoes, meat balls made up of pork and a bit of mushroom, pickles, fried bean curd, fried steamed buns, egg rolls with meat filling and two servings of taro. We had a perfect order because we ate up all the food and we enjoyed all these dishes. We went shopping after the dinner. There is only a few choices of clothes to choose from and I seldom buy clothes in Tiantai so we actually went for a work in the name of shopping in the building where KEC is at its ground floor. Well, time has its feet, walking away without me noticing. It was soon getting late into the night. So my sister and her friends went to my grandparents’ while me alone went back to the dorm.  Got a call from him after a good shower and washing the clothes. He expressed how sorry and unqualified he is as a boyfriend. well, I am actually getting used to his lip service. His constant empty talk recently has made him an untrustworthy guy. A boyfriend in the first place should be a friend, then a company, a brother and even kinda father-like, which is in my opinion what most girls want their boyfriends should be. I think I have been tired of all his idle words. While he was burbling about his study with his doctorial advisor, I rudely interrupted, making a false excuse that I should go to take a shower. Relationship should be a two-way street. I can not feed on illusions. I don’t think I will stand for a long time my endless sacrifice without any returns. Nobody can!  I got up early on Sunday. I could not manage to sleep a sound sleep for the change of the living environment, which is one of the annoying habits I have got. But on the other hand I said to myself early to bed and early to rise makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise, making myself feel better. It is the only day in a week when I have some real spare time to do heaps of my own things, without any disturbance from the work. Since we have not made a choice about which type of the washing machines to buy we decided to go to some other stores. Last night I said to my sister we were to meet at <time minute="30" hour="8">8:30</time> but only a few minutes later I changed my mind, because I thought she must have been tired for the whole day traveling and walking and she would have to get ready for going back to another city in the morning. So I told her that she could come to my dorm a little bit later and put off all the arrangements. However, at about <time minute="0" hour="9">9:00 o’clock</time>, she rang me up saying she would leave at <time minute="50" hour="10">10:50</time>, which ostensibly meant that I had to buy the washing machine all alone. Well, it is ok. She came to Tiantai this time to visit her friend rather than me, and she has her own life. I should be strong and independent, just as what my father told me days ago. Finally I worked out the reason why my father took the word from my mom as well when he helped me with the house moving,  emphasizing me should being independent. That is because I sort of wept on the night when my sister failed to pick me up the last time she was in Tiantai. Though lonely and unhappy, I still have to go out for the machine for the fact that I would feel even lonelier and unhappier if I failed to get it at the presupposed time. The telephone rang once again when I was pulling up socks. It turned out from my sister again. She said she would stay until I got the washing machine and change the ticket for another one at <time minute="40" hour="12">12:40</time>. It did not take long before we decided which one to buy and a shop assistant helped transport it to my living place. The water faucets I got in the dorm are false connector for the machine need changing into another type, so I had to put aside the washing thing today. Being bored after seeing my sister off, I went to my grandparents. When I arrived there, grandparents were having a short siesta, little cousin was practicing calligraphy, and the youngest one was sleeping in a pushchair, with her caring mother dozing around her. The baby woke up after an-apple-eating time. She was quite content with her sleep, yawning and smiling, with her big eyes staring at you curiously. I took her in my arms and I found my lap peed just a few seconds. She was very quiet when she peed. She must have a sense of success by urinating on my lap, for she started giggling and babbling the minute she finished answering the call of nature. She is an angel. It is really a hard job taking care of babies though it is a good way to lose weight according to most people’s ideas. I had a pain in the arms before long. Having reset her in the stroller, I went to the fourth story to get ready the things I would take with when I went back to my dorm. My grandma prepared a bowl of noodles for me before I left. It is the kind of rice noodles I like, cooking with greens, two sheets of the skin of soya-bean milk, shredded lean pork, dried day lily flowers and two duck eggs. I took a taxi back to my dorm because of my laziness. But when I got to the dorm only to find the smart card which is used for at least three times during the work day left at my grandparents’. I had no choice but went back to theirs to get it back. This time I had to take a taxi on the account that it was getting dark and the place where I live and work right now is the one few trace of a human being could be found and few available buses can be spotted as well. I took another taxi getting back after getting the card. Compared with the daily expense, it really cost me a fortune to take three taxis in hours for such a long way between these places. Kind of feel distressed for I do not make much money J.In contrast with the regular Monday, I had more stuff to take care on this one for the reason that except finishing the job arranged to do I had to check the work we did last Saturday as well. Meeting an old professor from the university I graduated from years ago in the afternoon reminded me of the days when I studied in the school and made me realised how many people I have disappointed. Well, that is my life. Today was supposed to be another normal day, but I woke up especially early at about <time minute="30" hour="4">4:30</time> for the headache of which I have the least idea before. So it is the first time I have got this kind of pain. I cleaned face and did a facial but it was still early for the work. I had hoped to go back to the bed but lying there, I felt nothing but pain in the head.  So I got up again washing the clothes left last night. When I dealt with the jeans, I suddenly felt nauseous, throwing up some bitter water from the stomach. It had never happened in my life. I guessed it might be caused by the cold, for I only wore a pajama when I was washing the clothes. I kinda of feel dizzy after all these cleaning, washing and vomit, so I lounged on a chair, counting sheep waiting for the time to have my smart card checked at <time minute="40" hour="6">6:40</time>. Then I went to the office, began a day’s work. I meant to finish the work as soon as possible but I was in a state of mess for the bad sleep of last night. So I rested my head on the arm, slept for a while and continued my work. Well, work is work, it is beautiful and unbelievably disgusting sometimes. You face it or lose it.

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coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-20 16:35

to richwealth: What i write is nothing but for  the practice of using English : ) Besides, it is a good way to kill time : ) I almost come here daily. So it is a place where we can communicate with each other. Thank you for your kindness : )

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-11-13 14:14

Father sent me another stool-like stand on Friday afternoon sustaining the washing machine for the first one is not large enough to prop up the four feet of the machine. My father seems to be an omnipotent guy. He did not learn any carpentry at all but he even can manage very fine pieces of it. He is an engineer of decoration but he is good at other handicrafts as well. I still remember I was always proud of my father’s handiwork and showed off a lot about puppets, stilts, and the like.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-11-13 14:14

Working on Saturday afternoon makes the whole day detestable and seemingly drag on at an unbelievably slow speed.  I had hoped to finish the translation task given by one of my friends in the morning, but the second I unfolded the sheet I felt sleepy. God knows how somnolent I am. I meant to bend over the desk snoozing a bit only to find it had been the lunch time when I woke up. I went to a bistro having a little bit noodles and a soup for the stomach trouble. I am in a habit of having a siesta every day so I went to sleep again though I had had some sleep a few minutes ago. I am kind of piggy. Do you know why piglets like sleeping so much? They want to build up their tiny body, so do <place>I.</place> I want to be taller.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-11-13 14:15

One of my cousins asked me to take her for a drumstick and a hamburger at KFC, which to me is always the last choice to have meals at for I am not into western style food. Besides, there is a kind of indescribably weird atmosphere at KFC in Tiantai. I just could not offer myself a reason to love this place. I have had meals at KFC two or three times in this year on the account that my friends wanted to meet me there for the convenience of shopping. If I happen to be in the mood of having some hamburger or chicken popcorn or something, I usually take it away. But this time my cousin was the boss. She wanted to stay in this filthy place. It was kind of compulsory that I should stay with her until she finished the meal since she came to visit me being my guest. It was quite a scene watching people coming and going, nibbling and gobbling.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-11-13 14:16

We went to a supermarket after the meal. It was swarming with people. I hate all the hustle and bustle of Saturday shopping but I have no better choice because it is the only time when my friend would come offering some help. I bought a mop, of which the head is made of a piece of sponge, a bag of powder detergent, a box of tissues for my might-be-snotty nose in cold days, a packet of facial puff, a weeny lunch-box which can save a bit of eatables for the once-in-a-while missed lunch, a bottle of honey, a bale of rice popcorn, a sack of crackers, a big pomelo, some dates, a few apples and some kiwi fruit. I met some acquaintances and former classmates while shopping. By comparison, I can’t refrain from the sadness of being alone. But, it is the life I choose to live.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-11-13 14:23

Coming across some senior citizens when I went for lunch at canteen reminded me that I have not visited my grandparents for two weeks. I should go to stay with them at least once a week, for I can keep them company on one hand while on the other hand I can eat delicious food cooked by my grandmother. My grandmother would definitely be more than happy to cook me my favorite dishes.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-11-13 14:24

My sister came again on this weekend. She had planned to come every two weeks but finally she changed her schedule because she is going to take part in the sports meeting held by her company the week after. I sort of hate her friend, who has always been trying to separate my sister from me and undermine the kindred between us since the day I got to know him. I miss the days when my sister and I walk hand in hand and share the same bed talking all night long and go to visit grandparents together and have heaps of fun.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-11-13 14:24

One of my friends told me that she has prepared me a birthday present and invited me to Hangzhou getting it by myself on the grounds that she has exams to take on this weekend and the present she has got for me is a kind of easily broken thing, not being convenient to send by post office. Failing to catch the bus this afternoon for the work sake I decided to go there tomorrow morning. Actually early in the morning when I was wondering how to deal with the rest time after the daytime work I got a call from my sister saying she would come if the inaugural ceremony of the sports meeting did not take long. The badminton event she has entered will not happen until tomorrow afternoon. So I was more than pleased to meet her instead of going to <city><place>Hangzhou</place></city>. Her coming here definitely makes me happier because I at least have company to talk and to go shopping and the like. She arrived at about <time minute="20" hour="15">15:20</time> the moment I was about to finish the work. She took four crabs from her workplace and hoped to cook in my dorm only to find I have nothing to boil or steam the delicacy except one electric heating kettle, which for sure could not do any help but boil water. Therefore, we decided to go for chafing dishes for the convenience of cooking the crabs. Saturday night witnesses Tiantai’s prosperity in some way as well as people’s enjoying their lives. Every shop and every restaurant and every recreational place seems to be unbelievably crowded. There is a saying that people in this place are much more particular in their food and it is easily told from the busy business run in various restaurants. We first went to Shuyuan, one of the best and biggest restaurants for chafing dishes, but could not find an ideal place to enjoy the meal. To us, having meals is a form of entertainment and a way to relax ourselves, which especially means to be on weekends. On this account, we went to another similar restaurant called Little Chubby Sheep and we got a box with four seats, ordering frozen bean curd, fried cubes of bean curd, lettuce, coriander, duck blood, mutton, potato chunks, sliced taros, meat balls. We boiled the crabs as the last dish for fear that the crabs spoil the broth for the other ones. We went window-shopping after the dinner and I bought a jumper out of plan. What else we got are very good apples and green grape and tangerines because fruit is a necessity of my life. My sister’s leaving after sending me back to the dorm got me annoyed with her friend again. Since the guy appeared in my sister’s life, my sister and I are not so close as before. I told him blatantly that I hate him being an obstacle between my sister and me and his domineering over taking my sister away. You know my sister promised when we were on the way to the shopping mall for the jumper that she would stay with me tonight and she was reluctant to leave my cozy little dorm but her friend was very persistent at persuading my sister into leaving me alone, how irritating the guy is. I hate him. I would like to take a knife stabbing him in the back.