[原创] that is life

hilary · 发表于 2006-9-29 10:56

not for me.hope is a good thing,maybe the best thing ever.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-9-29 10:54

Me travalling to Hangzhou or Shanghai or some other big cites or beautiful scenic spots would not have much fun as usual because of the crowd on holiday, but it can be the second choice.

革命老前辈 · 发表于 2006-9-29 12:12

Enjoy your time, my pretty little girl.After you get married, everything would be changed.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-9-28 16:34

just remember I told Hilary i might comment a little bit on Super Girl and she warned me not being hypercritical. Well, i was born a mild person but i really could not get why a girl like Li person could be the top one of the around hold last year. Super Girls in the first place should be girls. forgive my ingnorance, but i can't totally appreciate her beauty. She likes dressing up in androgynous styles. A good singer as she might be, she has a masculine voice. Girls are girls. She could be easily mistaken as a man for the Republic of Korea. Compared with the contest happening lately, i preter the latter.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-9-28 16:38

But neither of them is to my taste. I am already too old to enjoy all this stuff.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-9-28 16:09

Life goes on no matter whether you like it or not. I have the courage to face it.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-9-28 16:12

Sneezed just now, some one is missing me.[em01]

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-9-28 16:00

But sooner or later, eventually i will change my life.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-9-28 16:03

You know i am always too optimistic. just a little bit down these days. so i will get it over soon. no big deal.heihei

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-9-28 16:05

Kind of crazy these days. I used to surf the Internet once a week or I could leave without it for months. I am not a nettie at all but recently I do try to come here daily. I would have a sense of loss if I could not manage to connect with the net for a few days. Being anxious to register for the forum this afternoon because I kinda feel like reclaiming what I said yesterday for fear that I might have committed bunches of blunders.I did say I have got an equable temperament but I have turned out to be still in an easily disturbed state by heaps of trivialities. Annoying petty affairs are just congested in my bird brain. I might have got mental disorder because I have weirdly found myself uttering several expletives, which is abnormally rude in my friends’ eyes. By introspection, I have realized if I have been equable, I would, like a Taoist excelling in supernatural skill, handle everything with tranquility. I should have been more tolerant, trying to reason out a way to get out of the vexing situation where I am stuck.As to him, I thought I would be about to love him wholeheartedly, but it seems impossible for the matters concerning reality. I didn’t mean to kick up a row but he was disappointing. He promised to come and help me with the house moving during the national holiday but now he could not make it because he would be required for an extra shift on his boss’ call during that time. Given that we seldom have time getting together for the work problem I have, it is a little bit gloomy he should let go of such a chance when we could have days being with each others. But to be honest, if I was asked to work during the holiday I don’t think I would say no.  I am a reasonable person and I know he is a good guy though he has done several incomprehensible things lately. We have known each other for ages and have stayed as good friends for all these years. He is always the first one I turn to for help. He suggested being my guardian angel but I turned him down because I was trapped in a chasm of despair for quite a long time, but I did decide to reconsider his proposal on account that he is the best man ever to me. I could not figure out for what reason I should be in such a wobble on whether to accept him or not. It is not so tough a nut to crack, right? He can me a very good friend for sure but I doubt whether he could be a qualified boyfriend. Long has gone the day when I watched the film called ‘ Aspirin’, I am still impressed by the heroine’s sigh of sadness at her settling for Mr Li. I guess that is what life is. <span lang="EN-US" style="FONT-SIZE: 9pt; COLOR: #3300ff; FONT-FAMILY: Courier; mso-fareast-font-family: 宋体; mso-bidi-font-family: 'Times New Roman'; mso-font-kerning: 1.0pt; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-language: ZH-CN;">Each person has his or her own problems, so I shouldn’t be so grumpy. Life just goes on no matter you like it or not.

marc · 发表于 2006-9-28 18:52

I remember when I first saw her on tv.  I asked a friend "Who is that guy brushing his teeth and why is he dancing that way?  It makes him look like a girl.  It's only tooth paste...."[em01]

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-9-30 15:33

Holiday is beginning :)

marc · 发表于 2006-9-30 16:03

Feel free to invite me along.  I don't have any plans yet for the National holiday.  ha ha ha

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-12 15:45

Me, sort of lazy bone, for I can afford heaps of time to nibble away lots of hickory but can not spend a little time reading or getting online. Complaining the busy work but on the other hand whiling away has been the pattern of my recent life. Me, not seeming to be a sensible person, is wasting time. Not having been here for a couple of days, I would like to make up for the blank which was supposed to be filled up with days ago. National holiday is a time to get together with family and friends and go to travel as well. Anyway, it is a relaxing time.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-12 15:46

I planned to go out for a walk with three friends to a scenic spot not far from my work place on October the first, which is most distinguish in Tiantai for its quietness and its statues of arhats and buddhas as well as an ancient plum tree dating from the Sui Dynasty ( 581-618). I meant to go there not because I espouse Buddhism to pay respect to those clay figures supporting by straws and sticks but because it seems that it is a must to visit whenever you have a friend coming to Tiantai. It is a kind of symbol of Tiantai city with a certain saying going as follows: you can never say you have been to Tiantai if you fail to visit <place><placename>Guoqing</placename>
<placetype>Temple</placetype></place>. So I guide my friends to the temple whenever they come. The plan turned out to be an unfulfilled one because of the sudden notice of the house moving thing. Eventually my sister took them there instead. In the afternoon I went with the friends to another attraction called ‘Qiangtau Xiangu’, a celestial hill where the Eight Immortals - who are, according to legend, Li Tieguai, Han Zhongli, Zhang Guolao, He Xianggu, Lan Caihe, Lv Dongbin, Han Xiangzi and Cao Guojiu - once preached.  Compared with all the attractions in Tiantai, this is my favorite. It is quiet and we can enjoy the beauty of nature with clean water and steep steps. Unfortunately I came back halfway for the reason that I had to pack up my luggage beforehand for a taxi is to pick me up to move some of my stuff to my home. I have been there many times but I can experience differently at every occasion. We went to have a kind of special food for dinner. I would name it as Tiantai Pizza, because it is Tiantai original. It is a layer of large pancake as thin as a sheet of paper made of wheat flour gruel covered with shredded pumpkin, shredded potato, smashed bean curd and egg, cut pickles and shredded meat or whatever you could imagine. It is crisp and tasty when it is just off the pan.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-12 15:48

October the second is another travel day. We went to an artificial lake called Lishimen Reservoir or Hanshan Lake taking a yacht and visiting the dam in the morning and in the afternoon we paid a visit to Jiuzhe Hill having a foretaste of peasant life, such as grinding soy beans on an ancient bean-grinder to make bean curd, striking the roots of a fern and then washing it in the water to get the starch after its settling, and making earlike dumplings by the starch from the fern, hoping to live a farmer’s life after retiring.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-12 15:48

The third day of the holiday was arranged to meet some former classmates in high school. When we gathered together we unavoidably talked about the 100th anniversary observed on September 30. Though we all respect this centenarian and most of us received the invitation card for the ceremony, few classmates attended it because we feel shy for our achievements. We have not made any achievements at all, let alone the one worth mentioning. In a word, we are not successful enough to show up on such an occasion, no matter in terms of finance or politics. Generally, those invited and would be present at the particular event must be a kind of celebrities-like, either having made a fortune or advanced smoothly in officialdom, of whom some might have been industrial magnates or political tycoons in a certain place. Holding an anniversary of the founding of a school is to solicit donations in a way. I was told some bigwigs turned up that day and donated a certain sum of money: some guy subscribed a sum to build several Romanesque pillars in honor of the founder of the school or some other unknown reasons, the four daughters of Cao Tianfeng, a schoolmaster during the War of Resistance Against Japanese Aggression and the early days of liberation ( referring to the overthrow of KMT rule in China in the late 1940s’), contributed ￥250,000 yuan  to set up a pavilion in commemoration of their father, Red Rock Brewery, one of the companies with the best economic returns in Tiantai, donated more or less ￥200,000 yuan to build a square, some others presented some to set up a scholarship with the purpose of encouraging students to study hard and guys from Shanghai helped build another pavilion. All in all, we don’t have the access to the celebration. There was a rumor that alumni would be given a bottle of water once you entered the gate for the observation but couldn’t get any souvenirs if they didn’t give a penny. People who guard the gate should learn to tell whether the person went through the gate was former student or not. They would not be admitted if they didn’t look like graduating from the school. Another weird thing about the ceremony is that there is a bank account on each invitation card, which means asking for money flagrantly. My classmates commented it was most frightening. Well, time for talking about the ceremony itself. The stage décor is a billboard painted with several exploded fireworks and the letters ‘1906- 2006’ in bold. Bigwigs sit on the stage introduced one by one by emcees. Some guys stand by to await orders to set off a few fireworks, some guys are waiting to release batch of peaceful pigeons from cages. Reception personnel are divided into different groups arranged to wait in rooms and halls of different grades to receive different grades of guests. The moment head of Tiantai county declared the ceremony began, fireworks were exploded, the national anthem was played, the national flag was raised simultaneously. Pigeons are leased amid crescendos of music. Emcees chose to read congratulatory letters from famous units such as <place><placename>Zhejiang</placename>
<placetype>University</placetype></place>, current schoolmaster made a speech on the history of the school and political leaders from different hierarchies, a representative from provincial government, a municipal administrator of education, and an official from county government, respectively talked a few words expressing their expectations. After all the leaders present talked some the performance was put on. It started with a dance made up of three dragons, of which one is green but the other two are yellow. It is said the dragons are sort of like caterpillars though the dance is good. A former schoolmaster made a speech after the dragon dance. Next came a solo by a teacher of music in hot pink accompanied with a group of dancers in blue. An alumini form Qinghua university talked a few sentences in the name of all the former students working outside of Tiantai. An eight-student ensemble of pipa, a traditional folk instrument with plucked string and fretted fingerboard, followed, they might perform skillfully but the sound equipment went wrong, so the sound effect was not good. Then one more alumini from Red Rock Brewery presented a few words on behalf of the school graduates working in Tiantai, continuing by three sisters hula-hula-like dance, which originates from Hui Minority. They danced lightly and gracefully with pots and bowls on the head. A teacher represented all the staff of the school expressed their appreciation and the like and another solo carried on, performed by an army singer like person with a sonorous voice. The last spokesman was a student making a few wishes and promising to study hard so that they can be qualified to serve the country and what was left was three more performances: one is calisthenics of teachers with good shapes from the school, another is a dance expressing that life is full of hardships but can conquer with a strong will and the last number is a choral work of ‘Alma Marter’ and a second song with the name that let’s meet again 20 years later. The whole celebration ended up with a lunch, for which celebrities went to good restaurant, while common people at school canteen. So for those who are keen on keeping up appearances they are afraid of being humiliated,  they would rather choose not to participate in the celebration of the founding of the school.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-12 15:50

October the fourth was a rest time, sleeping in in the morning and going to bed early at night. During the daytime, I helped my aunt take care of her three and half months baby girl. She is such an angel, smiling all the time and not picky at all as to who carries her in the arm. She likes a lot being lift high and gnawing her small fist. Kinda miss her now, hopefully I can go to hold her in the arm again on the weekend.  I went to meet a foreign friend on the fifth, sitting in a coffee house nearly all day long. I was tired for no reason. It sucked. We had hoped to go for a walk or something, but I was unbelievably sleepy. On the other hand, I was worried about two-day-later job, which made me uneasy sitting there for fear of wasting too much time on idleness. Anyway, I was in a total mess. We went shopping after dinner, for this once I bough nothing but helped her choose a silk scarf, a sweater and two pairs of shoes. The next day was not a happy day, for most friends would go back to their work place, me, too. So nothing special happened, but to say goodbye to family and friends one by one. Seeing them off, I was at a loss all alone, wandering what I should do next. I clearly knew my life once again became dull and a little bit lonely, and sometimes even pathetic for the all the trouble and unhappiness in the work. How I hope to fly away, leaving this place for the one I like, however,  I seem like a bird with forever-broken wings, never being able to fly again. I might walk to the destination since I could not fly. But for sure I can fly again if I can join the broken bones together. Who knows? It all depends.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-12 15:50

Work restarted on the seventh, but was held up a lot for the rest of the past six days. Besides, everything is new for the change of the work place, so I can’t get used to the new environment immediately, in which most of facilities are still under construction, noises linger in the ears, and cement dust and soil follow me just like my loyal servants. It is absolutely inconvenient to get down to business. Another reason makes me uncomfortable is the new dormitory, which is designed in an inhuman way. I would say it is not suitable for living, but one of my coworkers said she has been grateful for having a separate place to stay in, only if it can  provide shelter from rain and sun, no matter whether is comfy or not. Working in this organization as well as in others, the weak are despised while the counterparts are flattered. It is a society characterized by the prevalence of the law of jungle. The general saying that you can be always safe if you are content with what you have is no longer right because even though you are content but some others are not. They will find faults with you even you don’t have any fault at all. He who has a mind to beat his dog will easily find his stick. So being unhappy does not do any good. Life continues no matter what happens, so why not feel happy facing anything? Mother always says I was born a composed person with a well-organized mind, behaving myself and never causing any trouble. What happened at the night of the eighth made me once again distinctly feel the law of jungle. But just as what I have mentioned, whatever happens to me I have nobody to blame. The only person who should shoulder the responsibility for being taken advantage of is myself, that is, why am I so weak? If I was strong or powerful enough, I would have escaped from the ‘disasters’. By no means did I have an intention of hurting anybody if I was in power but at least I could protect myself from unfairness. Friends around me told that that is the way life goes. I am even a little bit luckier in the comparison with others. There are a great number of people suffering far more than I do, so I should be self-respecting other than self-abandoned. My father came helping with the design of my new dorm on the ninth, and he tidied it up for me and moved in some daily necessities that I need recently. I finally have a comparatively cozy place to live in for the time being.  While he was moving the furniture to the right places I mentioned the change of my work assignment. I had hoped that he would comfort me saying something on my side, but he did not sympathize with me at all. Instead, he remarked on the reality that green young novices should learn to be tolerant towards any inequality, hoping that I can gain more common sense from experiences rather than complain a lot about the life, at the same time he expressed mother’s concerns about me for what I behaved recently. Once again he told me I myself am the most reliable person who can really helps. Well, even God helps those who can help themselves. I should have been stronger and more independent from the family. I can work out any problem all by myself instead of turn to others for help occasionally.  What do I expect? That is life. Things happen and we must learn to accept. He suggested me doing what I was told to by people who concerned are above me. Life would be easier if I just ignore all around, doing what I am supposed to do. The tenth and the eleventh went on as usual, except being a bit busier and confined in a dusty place.Today is another common day. Having finished all the work I finally have got a few minutes to spare. Life once more is lovely.

coldfeeter · 发表于 2006-10-12 15:22

to Marc:Thank you for your kindness : ) I d like to if I have a holiday again : )