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本帖最后由 水粉 于 2010-12-23 09:37 编辑
I dont get it. Time just flies.
When I was ready to absorb the ideas that people valued yesterday, the ideas evolves so fast that I have to do more catch-ups.
I still rememeber the time when I have a kind of virgin complex. It was hard for me to accept a girl who can throw herself to a new boyfriend, forgeting her old vows to her ex. It took tolls on me and I learned my lessons.
Back then I thought fairness is the only thing that matters in this world but I was wrong. I am the one who is not fair in opining a girl should be virgin all the time until she gets married. That is all men's talk. girls have the right to do whatever they want too.
Then another idea took all over me that why a lot of people have great fortune and very high standard of livings but don't have to work. Either they have rich dad or have good endowment from generations of accumulation. I realized maybe it was jealousy or fairness that was doing its old tricks again. I just couldn't get away from these ideas. I once blamed my dad for his honesty in working without grudges for my uncle for 20 yrs, which I considered a great waste of opportunity to start a business of our own. I was wrong again. Wealth is not the only criterion to make judgements to a person. Extra money brings troubles too. But we still need to work hard to give our better half and kids a better life. If I don't have a wealth to start with, I just work hard on my own with bare hands. No big deal.
The outlook of the world only is formed with adjustments to old ideas.
I was valuing fairness a lot but I have become more and more aware that there is no absolute faireness in this world. I can learn a lot from daily news of scandal, embezzlement, murder, drunk driving, officials found a lot of mistresses (Er4 Nai3). People who hit and run driving under influence (DUI) and walk away with impunity because he just have a dad who has a lot of fucking local clouts or he just simply paid the victim for an agreement. I was as careful as I can to shun myself from troubles like that because I knew if I was unfortunately run over by a car, my parents will be very sad but will have no ability to have the perpetrator down to his knees. The only thing I can do is be careful not get myself in that kind of trouble. Least I can do. The Law just bend itself in front of money.
Deep down, I don't like this world but I still would love to live everyday to the last minute if God allows. |
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